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Today is a friend’s birthday. It’s been a long time since I last seen her (she returned to Japan in 2010), but I still think of her whenever this time of the year rolls around.

For the past few years, I have seen her grow from a shy high school student to a confident young woman, via the pictures she posts on Facebook.

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Thinking of her birthday reminds me of amother person’s birthday. That person was a mutual friend, who had a birthday seven days after my first friend’s.

While that person and I never were particularly close- not from a lack of trying- I do think of them from time to time. I also think about what that person taught me: just because something is considered “ideal” by others, it doesn’t mean that it is “ideal” for me.

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We are constantly being told what we should want or how we should do things by others. Sometimes it’s through marketing. Sometimes it’s just part of our personal cultures. Sometimes it’s because someone else wants us to fall into a certain roll in their lives. Regardless of the reason, sometimes our personal preferences or desires may not mesh with these ideals, and that’s alright.


I feel confused


Today is the first day in a very long time where I haven’t needed to be somewhere by sometime for some reason. I’m honestly out of sorts because of it. I don’t need to go to work today. I’m used to working seven days a week. I don’t need to go to an event of some sort. I have NOTHING planned… and it’s that lack of a plan that confuses me. I don’t know if I like this…

Rest Ye Well Merry


“Merry Christmas” in advance to those who celebrate and “I hope you have a good couple of days” to those who don’t. May this time be filled with good food, a warm (for those in the North, like me) or cool (if you’re South) house, and happiness in whatever you do.


I’m going to enjoy a bit of time off, now that classes are over for good, before returning to the grind after New Year’s. I’ll bother mom and brother, give out gifts to those who’ve stayed by my side through thick and thin, and curl up with Kit under the fleece blanket to catch up on my Doctor Who.


Colorful Lights


2014 has been a good year for Christmas lights. It feels like people are a lot more willing to be festive this year, though maybe I’m just noticing them more than usual? After many years in retail, where I began to absolutely loath the holiday, I’m starting to get my holiday cheer back. Either that, or LED lights are making it a lot more affordable to string lights than in the past. Regardless, I’m loving the light show.