Erasure

This is my last week at my current job, so I started cleaning my workspace and computer hard drive up a bit. I got rid of old documents, nearly a pound of post-it notes, any anything that I wouldn’t absolutely need in the coming days. I also deleted a ton of old files, dating back to when I first started. I logged out of accounts I no longer regularly use. I set my settings back to their defaults. Bit by bit, I’m erasing my existence from there…

It feels unsettling.

I started working there late last July, after my work at the school wrapped up. It was supposed to only last a month, as per my original contract. At the end of that month, my contract was extended, even after all of the other temps were let go. If I stayed a few more months, I would have made a year…

But there was no security, so I started looking elsewhere. I wanted to find something before they could tell me that I was being let go. I misread the situation entirely…

They were going to make me permanent…

Around the same time I gave my notice.

So now, I am erasing 10 months of my life, and I don’t know how to feel about it.