So, it looks like autumn’s here at last. I mean sure, the autumn equinox was last month, but for most of October it didn’t feel like fall completely. Now, with the trees all colorful (or even completely bare), it really hits home for me. Before we know it, it’ll be Thanksgiving.
This will be my third Thanksgiving away from the family. Last year I visited mom, but usually I just end up making some tacos (I don’t like turkey) and playing video games. This year I’ll probably try to catch up on homework.
This term, I’m taking almost all writing classes, so I have a lot of essays to do. I complained so much last term about how much I had to write, but compared to this term, it was nothing at all! Normally, I like to write, but some of the topics are proving more than a little difficult. Inflation? Marketing strategies for a niche market? Human voiced resume? I’ll just pretend I know what I’m talking about…
Everything looks so different at night…
There are hardly any people out around 10 p.m, during the cooler weather. In the summer, people would be out chilling here until almost midnight, but now it’s a ghost town. No one’s even driving around! I wonder if this is what it would look like if all the people just disappeared off the face of the earth? It’s weird…
This is my little man, Charlie. He goes by Kit Kat (short for Kitten-Cat as he has the body of a mountain lion and the mind of a small kitten), Little Man, Bug-a-boo, and Itty Bitty Little Kitty. In a couple of months, he will have been living with us for an entire year.
After Boo passed, we decided that we would not be getting another kitty. First, we didn’t exactly have the funds, since I had quit my job and blew most of my savings on healthcare costs. Second, I was still getting over loosing Boo. We were very close and she had been dear to me for a bit over 10 years. Third, I plan on moving overseas next year and will be unable to take a pet with me, so any pet we got would have to be mama’s.
However, a friend of mine who worked in a Vet Clinic at the time, told us about a litter of kittens who had been left to die and who were slowly recovering. They had been abandoned the previous spring (around the time Boo got sick), but one of them still was unable to find a home. A friend of my friend took two, and the others got adopted out, but Kit was left due to his abnormal size and his strange personality.
Mama wanted him immediately.
So we took him in. It was difficult at first, since he’s afraid of almost everything. During the first few days we couldn’t get him to eat anything and thought he would get sick. He hid in the tub all the time (we kept him in the bathroom, as that’s the only room with a door) but slowly he warmed up to us. I think sitting in the tub with him, watching Sherlock and Doctor Who on my laptop may have helped a lot. ((He still loves the sound of David Tennant’s voice))
I’m really glad we took him, as he’s a complete sweetheart. I’m going to miss him when I leave, but I know he’ll be fine with mom. They get on great and he’s slowly becoming braver by the day.
I got an email from an old friend the other day. I haven’t spoken to this person since around this time two years ago. When I opened that email, I remembered many things that I haven’t thought about in a long time. Reading that message, I started to compare who I was back then to the person I am now.
Two years ago, around this time, I was in Japan. In those two weeks abroad, I learned so much about myself, and started on the path I am on today. I met many wonderful people who helped me reflect on my life and encouraged me to try new things. I think that if I had continued as I had been, I would probably be in a pretty horrible place now, with little expectation to change. I grew into my own abroad.
One of those things was going to an onsen or hot spring. At the time, I was working in the fashion industry, where the pressure about how my body looked was unreal. When I had that job (though it payed well and had lots of hours), I was under a lot of stress and in a dark place at times. I remember when I had to disrobe in the communal lockers, I was so shy about my small breast (I always wore push-up bras with loads of padding) and lack of make-up. But being surrounded by women of all body types who were unabashed about their rolls and wrinkles, I felt something change in me. No one judged me, no one stared at me, and I judged no one in turn. I just sat with my friend (naked and just as unabashed!) and talked about the differences between America and Hong Kong in Japanese. I haven’t been worried since.
About six months later I quit that job.
The person I am now knows what is important in life (to me), what I want, and has no problem saying goodbye to those who don’t respect me as an individual. I plan to spend my life with like-minded friends, doing what I love. I hope you all get the same opportunity.
It’s time to go home. It’s early evening and a chill is seeping into the air. In your hands are two bags of groceries, inside is your dinner. The train is pulling up to the platform, so you step back, far behind the yellow line. You can’t wait to get home. Will there be any more seats?
I have one particular scarf that I love and get so many compliments on. This is this scarf on a macro level.
Photographed at about 1cm distance with a clip-on special lens made for mobile phones.
As you can see it has plenty of colors, metallic threads, and tassels.
It may very well be the best $12 I have ever spent.
What do you think?